Ohhhhh, how I’ve longed for spring! And I have to say, with the healthy changes I’ve made in the past year, this winter did not get me down like they’ve done in the past. As a matter of fact, a lot of things have changed in the last year. Not the least of which is my anxiety.
I’ve dealt with an anxiety disorder for all of my life. Ever since I was in second grade when I had a teacher that terrorized me and a neighbor of who molested me, I’ve dreaded the attacks that seemed to come from nowhere. I planned my whole life around avoiding situations that might be a trigger and it was debilitating.
The thing was, except for losing Mr. Virgo, I never experienced a difficult situation WITHOUT suffering severe anxiety. I think the only reason I got through that loss was shock. When I made the drastic change of stopping caffeine and sugar and added the RYZE Mushroom Coffee, I immediately saw a big change. I still didn’t know if it would make a difference during a crisis, but I felt such relief. I figured I’d find out sooner or later when the next stressful situation occurred.
It’s interesting that when a challenge came that would normally have thrown me for a loop, I felt the adrenaline, but that’s as far as it went. I was dumbfounded. I thought it must have been a fluke. Then another situation and another situation and I found I could cope really well. I can’t express what a relief that is. For the first time in my life, I’m not dreading the other shoe dropping because I know God brought me the answer I needed. He will walk me through anything that comes my way. This is the most liberating feeling I’ve ever experienced!
We had a gentle day yesterday. A nice breakfast. I am knitting a pair of socks for my dear friend. I am just learning how to customize socks to fit the recipient. Socks are normally too tight for her. So I’m knitting her a pair of roomy socks in an acrylic blend yarn. She doesn’t like wool against her skin so I think she’ll really like these.
I went out to the camper last night to write and as I left the house, there was a nice fat toad on the sidewalk. I took a picture and was really disappointed it was blurry. It isn’t the really big guy that’s been hanging around the last couple of years. I hope that one made it through the winter.
We are supposed to get rain all day today and maybe even snow flurries overnight. Then next week we are back up in the 70’s. And tonight we spring ahead. It will be lighter later and that’s just fine with me.
Someone dear to me is grieving today. Hold your people close, dear friends…and tell them you love them.
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”….mourn with those who mourn.“
Romans 12:15 NIV